stories part II

ok.. so he's apparently moving at the end of january.. so now i'm thinking ok i really need to tell him soon! this same night, his friends are all talking about the new years party that they are throwing and i keep telling them that i'm not gonna come b/c i have decided to do this whole "doing nothing" night. finally at the end of the night.. we are walking around.. and he's like, i can't believe you aren't hanging out with me on new years! so this is why i decide to go to new years.. essentially all through break i'm thinking about how to tell him how i feel about him, and it's finally new year's eve.

so new year's eve, i first went to anuj's and finally got to this party that ameya had at 11:45. he was worried that i was gonna miss the 12am mark and was happy when i got there.. the only problem was that his sister was there. i like his sister most of the time, but this night, i wanted to be alone with him and my plan was to just kiss him at midnight!! so midnight hits and it's the two of us standing holding hands watching the countdown and his sister comes and gives me a big hug right at new years.. which was nice.. but then all of a sudden it's this huge crowd of people (his friends) who have come over and everyone is hugging and kissing and then i basically don't get him alone again the whole night... at least this night was a lil more forward.. holding hands.. his arms around me when we were standing but nothing where i could just tell him how i felt.. which is finally what i wanted to do.

so we're all hanging out and at some point i go to the bathroom and i'm washing my hands and this girl that he knows is at the sink next to me. i didn't really see her b/c i was deep in thought about when i was gonna tell him and she somehow read my mind and was like "tell him already!".. which i thought was really funny.. apparently it's really obvious that there's something there and she says that the whole night his friends have all been talking about how neither one of us will make a move... so i told her that i wanted to say something but his sister's always there.. so she's like don't worry i'll take care of it.

we go upstairs and she brings over Steve and Jeremy (his roommates) who are the ones she's been talking to about this the whole time and they come over when i'm standing with ameya and his sister and they oh-so-subtly tell her that they want to show her something in the other side of the club.. so she doesn't go at first and then she drags my hand and is like.. lets go see what they are showing.. so i try to play it off but basically she gets that there is nothing to show and doesn't leave.. ameya by this point is super drunk and wants to go home b/c he isn't feeling so hot.. so he tells me he wants to leave and the two of us decide to take a cab to his place (yay!).. we make it outside and his sister and 2 work friends are like.. hey we are coming too.. we end up in this cab and basically they convince us to go to the bar downstairs from his apt.. we are there for a bit and then he's feeling sick again so he asks me if we can go to his place.. we leave to go to his place (yay again thinking i can talk to him now) and he starts puking.. so he's puking for the next half hour or so.. we go sit on his bed and i'm feeding him water and wiping his face.. he grabs my hand and says "you are amazing, you know that".. and shy lil rupa finally comes out of her shell and is like "just kiss him!!" but of course.. everyone comes back at the same time.. all of a sudden it's his roommates, his sister, his work friends and the place is chaos again.. we sat there a lil longer and then finally i left to go home and he went to sleep...

argh!!! so now the india trip is final. he's leaving this SATURDAY!!! (nush and jules- there will most likely be a party friday for him!)... so now i haven't yet told him... although i think it's mutual.. but he's leaving this saturday for a year. so sad.. i think we are gonna have lunch on wednesday so i want to talk to him then.. but it's tough with all the people that want to say bye. that's my story.. sorry to ramble on and on :)

i like him a lot!! i hope this works out b/c it's just been really good with him the last few months.. but it'll be hard when he goes. thoughts? :)