rick from next house

i think i know who that is.
jules (or nush if she remembers) he lived on maybe the fifth floor? and hung out with marina. he acted all too cool even though he was basically an mit dork. he was from cali - that's why he and marina first started hanging out.

the dean thing - first of all, random. second of all, dean upsets me. i'm basically over it now, but jess told me back when we first moved in together how dean now didn't like me and found me annoying or whatever exactly she said. the two of them are still in touch. its just a little . . . upsetting to have to look back on your college years and recognize the depth of your dillusion concerning who cared about you and who was really just tolerating you (obvious example - ANY kappa sig). for him especially its hard because it makes me start having these really negative thoughts that at one point we were friends and i did something "wrong" to make him not like me. i don't know if you guys have ever looked back like that. its funny the strange effect it has on things because it makes me value people like bryan schmid more - he was always upfront about whether he liked me or not.

i'm a freak :) mostly, the thinking occurs when i'm telling edgar stories. i tell him things that happened and he listens to them and is like - wow, that guy/girl sounds like a prick - you actually consider them a friend? and i start to rationalize and then i'm like you're right, that wasn't very nice.